stuff and nonsense

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Mon, 08 Apr 2013 15:06:39 -0400

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I’ve been talking with a friend recently about easy pain...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 11:03:51 -0400

I’ve been talking with a friend recently about easy pain versus hard pain. It’s easy to ramble on about things that are easy to talk about/the most obvious. It’s even easy to make yourself believe that those things are why you hurt. But what about the things closest to your heart? The things you don’t share. The things that hurt so bad your broken mind can’t even think about it in a moment of sanity. The things you don’t even know how to pray about. The things that seem redundant, but never go away. I’ve heard it said that the ones who keep silent hurt the worst. And maybe that’s true, or maybe the ones who speak the most actually hurt the worst because they’re not speaking about the things that matter.

I’ve struggled with severe anxiety for a couple of years now. Last summer was really bad, but I had the courage to get treated. Asking for help was one of the hardest things I’ve done, but a good friend helped me through it. Several weeks ago, I started struggling with it again, and I didn’t really tell anyone. Anxiety is one of those hard pains for me.

There’s a word I’ve written across my arm: Courage. cour·age
/ˈkərij/
Noun
The ability to do something that frightens one.
Strength in the face of pain or grief.
Synonyms
bravery - valour - valor - pluck - gallantry - nerve

We all need a little bit of courage. Courage to get it right. Courage to be the best person we can. Courage to love. Courage to be honest. Courage to live-to be alive. Courage for our friends.

"He saw clearly how plain and simple – how narrow, even – it all was; but clearly, too, how much it..."

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 02:00:49 -0400

“He saw clearly how plain and simple – how narrow, even – it all was; but clearly, too, how much it all meant to him, and the special value of some such anchorage in one’s existence.”

- Kenneth Grahame, The Wind In The Willows (via psalm138-8)

There's something just a little bit sad

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 00:34:06 -0500

about having life changing experiences, and no one to share them with.

People are flakes

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 00:01:55 -0500

They complain about wanting realness in their lives. Real conversations, real people, real convictions. But then when those things approach them head on, they bail.

Sooner or later they won’t come anymore.

sarahseeandersen: Sometimes I feel like the way I clean my room...

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 14:16:01 -0500

sarahseeandersen:

Sometimes I feel like the way I clean my room reflects on how I deal with life in general.

photojojo: The Polaroid Z2300 is our latest fave for the...

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 14:51:59 -0500

photojojo:

The Polaroid Z2300 is our latest fave for the following reasons:

The traditional Polaroid rainbow stripe, obvi.

The fact that it shoots instant photos and saves them digitally.

The instant prints have peel-off sticky backs, so you can stick your photos all over!

YUP.

The Polaroid Z2300 Prints Instant Photos with Sticky Backs!

mugglenet: NEW Hogwarts House Rings! Each ring features the...

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 23:08:44 -0500

mugglenet:

NEW Hogwarts House Rings!

Each ring features the house symbol and name; Gryffindor, Slytherin,Hufflepuff, and Ravenclaw. Available in sizes 4-12 and different metal materials.

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Christmas present?

tastefullyoffensive: Growing up sucks.[via]

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 11:16:34 -0500

tastefullyoffensive:

Growing up sucks.

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The Thankfulness Song

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 02:42:00 -0500

I tend to try and stay away from the blogging world, ‘cause it’s kind of just one more thing that likes to get me down, but it is Thanksgiving time, and what would it be like without a post about thankfulness?

It’s funny, because looking back, I see some of the worst/hardest times of my life have happened during the winter months, and yet, somehow, it is still my favorite time of the year.

Not just because of the food, or the family, or the decorations, or the presents, or the “holiday spirit”… for some reason, around this time of the year, I feel more connected, more like myself, and more alive, like something is finally important.

This year, I am thankful for many things. I’ve been thinking on some of these things lately, and tonight, I am sitting in my dorm room with my new friend Rachel. (We decided to keep each other company tonight because both of our room mates didn’t come home, and with creepy things happening on the town, sleeping alone in an empty room is not the most attractive idea. Plus, Rachel and I are a bit alike in that we would rather be alone together, than alone by ourselves.)

I have a wall in my room that is covered with pictures full of people in my life. People that I love, people that I miss, people that are no longer with me, people that I hurt for… and I realized that I need to add more pictures to that wall. I’ve met a lot of people this year, and all of them have taught me something at some point.

I’m thankful for my new friends at school… it’s been a rough start, but as the semester is coming to an end, and I’m about to begin my sophomore year, I’m feeling pretty good about it. I feel like I’ve finally found my place… and it’s not at the frat houses, or at the bars, or even in the barn. It’s just random people that I met in random places. Some, because I am terrible at math, some because I went to one party over the summer, some because I became ridiculously addicted to coffee, and others, because I did something helpful for someone when they needed a hand. I have no idea if these are “the friends” that I will have for the rest of my college career/life that everyone is always saying you’ll make your first year of college. I don’t even know if we’ll be friends next year. But they all taught me something and helped me with where I’m at right now, and none of them even know it.

I’m thankful for my full ride. It is an enormous blessing not to have to worry about being 120k in debt. It is so much easier to focus on school, and enjoy the perks of going to a private school. I am thankful for my dad, who was able to get me this scholarship, by keeping a terrible job for so many years.

I am thankful for all of my horse friends. For Star, and for Twister, and everyone I’ve met/ridden in between. They may have 4 legs and a tail, but they really are wonderful friends. They keep all of my secrets, and cheer me up when I am down. Star and I are the same… I never really saw it until this year. We have the same insecurities, the same hopes, the same fears. I think she brings out the best in me. I don’t know what I would do without her, and while no one really understands that, or understands why, it’s okay.

I am thankful for Kate and Michele. Being home schooled, my mother was my only teacher, and in the later years, I fairly well taught myself. But these two fabulous ladies have taught me so much. They’ve believed in me, and guided me, and have been there as a friend when I needed them. I admire both of them, and would love to be more like them someday.

I am thankful for my best friend. Seeing them getting their life together, and moving on makes me want to be a better person. It’s like I woke up one morning and saw that, and suddenly realized that it’s not only possible, but it’s something I want really bad. It’s like a testimony I’m not even sure they realize they have.

I’m thankful for my sister and my soon to be brother-in-law. They’re quite great, and have shown me that even with all my doubt about love and it’s existence, it’s possible people can work it out. I’m so happy for them, and am honored to be their maid of honor. I can’t wait to share their special day with them. (whenever that is.)

I am thankful for all my other friends spread out across everywhere. Especially the ones who aren’t psycho. ;) And the ones who have been there the longest, and that I know will always be there in the end.

I’m thankful for the friends who went away. It sucks what some of you did, but you made room for better things.

I’m thankful for my family. For my mother, and my father, and my two sisters. I didn’t understand how much I love them, or how much I need them until I went away to school. Keep the people you love close.

I’m thankful for my grandpa…. for holding on this long. I’m thankful to God for letting him stay here with us for now.

I’m thankful for my math professor. BEST MATH TEACHER EVER. I’m actually learning stuff.

I’m thankful for my new cannon. I just am.

I’m thankful for coffee. You fix all of my headaches.

I’m thankful for ART. What would I do without Art?

Music. I’m thankful for music.

I’m thankful for my surgeon. For fixing my jaw at the beginning of the year, and for being there now as I start to have some issues again.

I’m thankful for turkey, and food, and being able to eat food.

I’m thankful for Jesus, for listening to me when I yell. And for somehow not giving up on me.

I want to be better. A better friend, a better daughter, a better student and a stronger believer. I want to know what that is, and what that means. For so long, I kept trying to look back and think on when I was a good friend, or a good daughter, or any of those things, and somehow get back to that. But now I see that it’s not about going back… it’s not about trying to be someone that I used to be. Obviously whoever that was didn’t work out very well. I’ve got to start completely fresh with myself.

I’m thankful for second chances….

ohlili: Sandy vs. lighthouse on Lake Michigan

Mon, 05 Nov 2012 12:59:08 -0500

ohlili:

Sandy vs. lighthouse on Lake Michigan

tastefullyoffensive: If Dr. Seuss Wrote Star...

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 13:07:22 -0400

tastefullyoffensive:

If Dr. Seuss Wrote Star Wars…

[jasonpeltz/buzzfeed]

What the hell

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 18:08:07 -0400

have I done?

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Wed, 29 Aug 2012 09:17:58 -0400

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photojojo: The world’s most exclusive photo gallery doesn’t...

Sat, 04 Aug 2012 11:00:53 -0400

photojojo:

The world’s most exclusive photo gallery doesn’t cost you a fortune to tour, it only requires you know how to dive!

Photographer Andreas Franke constructed his latest exhibition entirely underwater!

Submerged Ship is World’s Only Underwater Photo Exhibition!

via fubiz

Underwater photography is my absolute favorite.

"The mind is not a book to be opened at will and examined at leisure. Thoughts are not etched on the..."

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 22:43:28 -0400

“The mind is not a book to be opened at will and examined at leisure. Thoughts are not etched on the inside of skulls, to be perused by an invader. The mind is a complex and many-layered thing.”

- Severus Snape

Here am I, Lord.: Internet Cowards

Mon, 09 Jul 2012 23:17:40 -0400

Here am I, Lord.: Internet Cowards:

psalm138-8:

“Thus, the Internet generation is inherently cowardly. Online, people are using the language of confrontation without having to take responsibility for the consequences such rhetoric normally carries with it — and not just with regard to physical violence. The emotional consequences of…

It’s true. Some of the first real conversations I ever had were on the Internet and it became a safe haven. Now real conversations face to face are difficult at best. Coward is a good word to use. It’s sad that for so many people in this generation, talking to someone face to face about something difficult is considered to be “brave”.It isn’t even that fact that makes me sad, but more so the fact that most of the time, people dot even have that courage.

photojojo: Lincoln Harrison photographed star trails over the...

Mon, 09 Jul 2012 01:09:44 -0400

photojojo:

Lincoln Harrison photographed star trails over the Australian outback!

Star Trails in the Australian Night Sky

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photojojo: We’re suckers for some beautiful high speed...

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 10:55:58 -0400

photojojo:

We’re suckers for some beautiful high speed photography, and Duncan Loughrey’s simple black and whites are some of the best!

Featuring: Photography by Duncan Loughrey

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photojojo: Rad Photo Idea: Use other photographer’s LCD screens...

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 10:50:14 -0400

photojojo:

Rad Photo Idea: Use other photographer’s LCD screens as the focal point for your image!

Zeb Andrews did just that in stunning capture of the Eiffel Tower.

Photo Idea: Shoot Your LCD Screen!